So where did that weekend go then? It is my firm conviction that the days that make up the weekend have less hours in them than the days that make up the rest of the week. I also think days off go quicker when it is sunny and it has been sunny here – yasssss! Apologies if it is not sunny where you are but we have been up to our Arks in rain for the past fortnight and the whole country has been dark and soggy. (Obviously Australia you would, I suppose, give your eye teeth to be soggy. Sorry. Again. To be frank I’m sorry I even started this).

We have been quite busy for old people. We have visited Aged Parent in her new abode. Some days she loves it. Some days – not so much. For it is she and that is how she is. I have had a series of anguished phone calls telling me how unhappy she is – which was worrying. However, though an unrelated set of circumstances, I was chatting with the lady that leads her team of carers who casually informed me that AP was one of the more social people that she looked after and that she went downstairs for coffee everyday to have a chat. She was very surprised when I told her about the calls I was getting and offered to have a chat with AP. I think there may have been an element of “caught out” about this chat because since then, we have seen a bit of a change. AP has told me about her exercise class (seated obviously – my kind of exercise class) and demanded £50 to continue to play Bingo.

Me……Er £50? Who are you playing with? Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid?

AP……Well I won’t spend it in one go obviously. That will keep me going for a while. One of the prizes is a mug with a dog on it.

At this point I am staring at a mug tree the size of a beanstalk in her kitchen but decide not to argue. It’s her money.

Then we had a very nice lunch with people which, as I said was lovely but left me amazed at how much a restaurant can charge for a pizza. I mean, they are on offer at Iceland for £1 a go at the moment. I know mine had spinach and cranberry sauce on but really. I think I am getting old because I am so full after something like that, I always think I will never eat again. However, not to worry, within a couple of hours I was giving due consideration to a small bag of Maltesers.

This morning, for reasons that are far too complicated to go into here, we found ourselves at a Wesley Covenant Service. After two weeks of “New Beginnings New You” nonsense, it was refreshing to think about the New Year being about committing yourself to something that had a bit more depth to it than losing half a stone or cutting down on the time you spend on Instagram. I’ve copied John Wesley’s Covenant Prayer below and the thing that struck me about it was how freeing it is. It’s not up to me – it’s up to you God. It seemed to be about letting go of striving, which is surely a good thing. Because striving takes its toll and we are all older than we think. Well apparently I am. Witness this conversation between AP and me.

AP……I’ve been to singing class.

Me……Excellent. Did you enjoy it?

AP……Yes, we sang all the old songs “We’re going to hang out the washing on the Siegfried Line” Do you remember it?

Me……(Affronted) No. I do NOT remember it Mum because it was WWII.

AP……You do remember it (singing now) “We’re going to hang….”

Me……(Rudely interrupting) Yes, I KNOW it Mum. I just don’t REMEMBER it.

AP……Oh you do surprise me. Looking at you, I thought you would remember it.

The Covenant Prayer

I am no longer my own, but yours. Put me to what you will, rank me with whom you will; put me to doing, put me to suffering; let me be employed for you, or laid aside for you, exalted for you, or brought low for you; let me be full, let me be empty, let me have all things, let me have nothing: I freely and wholeheartedly yield all things to your pleasure and disposal. And now, glorious and blessed God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, you are mine and I am yours. So be it. And the covenant now made on earth, let it be ratified in heaven. Amen.



  1. Kirsten
    January 19, 2020 / 9:08 pm

    I haven’t been able to say that prayer, I look at it every year (it has crossed over into Anglicanism) and think about it…
    We were ‘out and about’ today; it felt like a scene from a film where people emerge from bunkers into the sunshine after some catastrophe amazed that the world still exists…

    • lesleyps91
      January 20, 2020 / 10:20 pm

      Yes!Same here. People were walking along the Hoe in Plymouth and we were on the verge of hugging complete strangers.

  2. January 19, 2020 / 11:48 pm

    My ‘help’ used to refer to the song as ‘put out the washing on the Secret line’….. not that I remebmer it , of course. Said she who was born at the beginning of WW2
    That prayer is slightly terrifying. It demands a lot of courage/faith/trust??

    • lesleyps91
      January 20, 2020 / 10:19 pm

      I wouldn’t mind but I don’t think AP remembers the war. She was young enough to be evacuated. Well she would have been if her Mum hadn’t changed her mind and snatched her back from the railway station as she was leaving

  3. January 20, 2020 / 12:15 am

    This weekend has been altogether too short. My OH has suddenly developed a dreadful streaming cold, and all plans for quiet resting have gone out of the window as he keeps coughing and sneezing. And I think I’ve caught it now. Wesley’s prayer. is good but challenging.

    • lesleyps91
      January 20, 2020 / 10:18 pm

      Oh no. It’s everywhere at the moment. I’m not sure I do much but look at Wesley’s prayer in admiration. Bit like watching Serena Williams in full flow. Full of admiration but possibly not in my skill-set

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