I think this is very definitely advent now. I have actually bought all but a couple of presents all of a sudden and all decorations are up. (Well to be strictly accurate, HOH has a week off at this time of year and he has done all the actual physical fairy light hanging and shop trawling although my help, in an advisory capacity, was, apparently invaluable)
I have continued to amble through the Advent for Everyone book this week. It is an unusual Advent book. No mention yet of Baby Jesus or Mary or anyone. This week – Week 1 has been about Thanksgiving. This week has been challenging about generosity and thankful hearts. It is not at all wishy washy though – he doesn’t talk about being thankful for anything in particular – not circumstances of life or even answers to prayer. He talks about thanksgiving as being a natural state of where we are and who we are in God. It is all very challenging. Such as
“Young Christians need wisdom and understanding not just in book learning or human traditions but a deep inner sense of who they now are, of the newly created life which they have received from God.”
I am thinking that if I could get hold of half of who I am in Christ, that I would lose all the insecurities that I struggle with and thanksgiving would naturally follow. This the (wholly plausible) theory. Actually taking it on board and living it is something else altogether
As you know I endeavour to always protect you dear readers from the various trials and tribulations of my hum drum life. By jiddy, however, I have had a bit of a trying week. I had to apologise to someone this week. It was entirely my fault (although to be fair to me, as you know I am always fair to me, my bad behaviour was not a nasty thing – more an inability to remain calm, cool and collected) So, I apologised (quite right too) and my apology was handed back to me – not unaccepted exactly but with no comfort or understanding.
I think that if I understood who I was, in God, a bit more clearly, I would be able to deal with this a bit better – maybe understand the reasoning behind things rather than see them just from my own point of view. Also I would be better at shaking the dust from my feet when I have done all I could and then move on.
As I say – this is an unusual Advent Book. One commenter this week said that she had taken to writing bits of it down in the back of the book to go back to later. It’s a good idea. If I thought this was challenging – next week is Patience. Ha!