Lucy

The Internet is awash this morning with Good Friday thoughts and meditations. That is how it should be. I am happy to point you to a couple. A reminder of a beautiful hymn from Tracing Rainbows and a wonderful meditation here

I am afraid that I am out of step with right thinking Christianity myself this Easter because we lost our dog this week.  Our lovely Lucy had a stroke and we took the horrible decision to have her put down. HOH had to bear the heaviest burden as he had to take her. She was only eight. We had not seen it coming but there was no choice. So as he stroked her and thanked her for the lovely time we had together and said goodbye as the anesthetic sent her to sleep, HOH said that he was overcome with love for this little, submissive, eager to please little dog and our hearts are breaking at the moment. 

This weekend calls to mind the most pivotal events in the history of humanity but, I am sorry. I am just not there. We have an empty box in the kitchen and some ashes to scatter on the beach, where she loved to potter and roll in seaweed when she thought that we weren’t looking. 

I hate it at the moment. I hate that it is so much easier to walk one dog than two. I hate the money we will save on food. I hate not pulling them apart when they disagreed over the ownership of a ball. I hate not hearing her click-click of her paws on the polished wooden floors. I hate that another connection with my brother, whose dog she was, has gone. We know that we gave her a good life and she was very happy with us and eventually, I am sure that this will be a comfort.

Everyone I know who has owned a dog tells me that it is the same for all dog owners. That, as we leave the breeder’s house with our puppy, we are setting ourselves up for heartbreak further down the line. Yet we all do it, because of what they give to us, with their unconditional love and companionship, as well as all the laughter. And I know that we will laugh when we remember her. Eventually. Just not yet. 

Good bye Lucy Lou. Our family is richer for knowing you and poorer now you aren’t here. Thank you – for everything.

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  1. March 29, 2013 / 12:06 pm

    Dear L, HOH, FOW Snr and Mnr,

    I'm so sorry for your loss and I'm well aware of the feeling. You'll remember we had to make the same decision in respect of Raffaello our 18yo Persian. They become so entrenched in our family lives don't they. You cannot separate them and ascribe human mores to them, in the way we speak to them and even consider how they'll feel about being left behind for holidays etc. I still find it difficult relaxing without him lying on my chest at night.

    I hope that your sorrow will be alleviated soon. You'll never forget of course. Look after yourselves.

    When you're in the mood for some humour, then you may not have come across this comedy skit sent by a friend. I've never been a particular fan of Jim Carrey but he has risen in my estimation with this. The Americans have great difficulty getting Satire and don't mention irony. So I should think that, given the seriousness of the subject, JC will have expected the violent backlash, despite the skit's obvious satire, and have they got the knives out. I laughed out loud [strange with most American Comedy, not all though] despite the seriousness of the subject. It is really funny. So if you're in the road for some humour at some point, enjoy:

    http://www.funnyordie.com/videos/0433b30576/cold-dead-hand-with-jim-carrey?playlist=featured_videos

  2. March 29, 2013 / 1:31 pm

    A close friend has posted on facebook today that she'd had a rubbish week , her friend had died and also her cat. I do not find any incongruity there. There are different levels of grief. Scripture tells us that our Father sees the sparrow fall – surely our Creator God cares for the smallest of his creatures. Lucy Lou was part of your family, and you WILL miss her.
    Isn't part of the message of this weekend that Jesus died to restore ALL Creation to a right relationship with God?
    May Easter Morning bring you joy – it's Friday now, the sky is dark…but Sunday's coming!!

  3. Anonymous
    March 30, 2013 / 9:40 am

    We are so sorry to hear your news Lesley.Didn't want to ask the other day for obvious reasons.Been there before with our 18 year old cat who grew up with the boys, heartbreak for sure but we have set ourselves up yet again its what we do.Lucy will now be keeping your brother amused I am sure and your memories will always be with you.New beginnings, the Easter message, that feeling will come to you I am sure when the time is right.I will say a little prayer for Lucy and for you all as I am sure all your friends will be doing also.

  4. March 30, 2013 / 6:11 pm

    :0(

    So sorry to hear about Lucy. Thinking of you. x

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